I made stupid statements last time.

But, I will get better.

Big things are hopefully coming.

I want to explore more.

My journey will continue.



New content coming every week.

Photos every month.

New products are also in the works.

Great things coming soon.

I'm working harder.

Join me on the journey.

Thoughts 19.12

I haven't written in this in awhile.

Things have changed.

I guess.

Creativity is withering away.

This town and people are sucking the life out of me.

I want to do something worth the time.

I haven't done this in a long time.

My emotions have been non-existent in the past couple days.




What will change me?

When will I see the light at the end of the tunnel?

The true happiness that very few people reach.

What does it mean to be a real human being?

13 Questions

  1. What do I mean to this world?
  2. Is life just one big dissapointment?
  3. Would the earth be happier if we were all dead?
  4. What have humans really done during their existence on this planet?
  5. Is real eternal happiness really possible?
  6. Is there actually a god that has created every living thing?
  7. Is death actually the end?
  8. Are humans naturally evil or good?
  9. What is time?
  10. Do people actually seriously care for other people?
  11. Have we just been instructed to live life a certain way and are doing it rather than what our heart says to do?
  12. Is life actually not fair?
  13. Why do we live life?

Thoughts 12.11

The world as a whole has confused me lately. 

Ever since I was young I’ve wondered why all of my favorite people weren’t as lauded as I thought they deserved to be. Real art is usually cast aside in favor of the more easily digestible popular stuff. Just listen to the crap on the radio or watch some of the stuff that’s broadcast on T.V. and you’ll see hundreds of examples of exactly the kind of thing I’m talking about. 

I think the real problem is I’ve felt dead for as long as I can remember. Maybe by not believing I was alive, my tastes shifted in a direction different from the mindless robots that stumble around this pathetic planet we call home. Perhaps straying from the so-called “flow" one can transcend this world, or maybe I’m just as stupid as the average pup that follows the rest of the pack.

Although, I’d like to believe I'm the lone wolf that strays from the pack, while the rest go off to the slaughter.

Thoughts 29.7

After Cali, I need to find some adventure but the problem with this is I will be working 10-9 almost everyday for the rest of the summer. Maybe I will find the guts to quit and move out of this hell. I seriously can't take more of this "you have to do this", "you need to be plan things out", and all the other dumb things these robots say. I want to be a real free human being. But, as I found out when I was a little kid there is no such thing as true freedom. There is some eerie sense of excitement in freedom and doing what you want to do no matter what all others say.

But maybe that's why I will die early.


This is the first post I have written for this new blog on my website hopefully I will use this for good in the future. This post will be posted before the site is finalized so enjoy the site.